I don't need to be special to anyone. (accept "socks" :D Daily readers should know who is socks from my last posts, but if you don't, it's the person that I care about most :p) I just want people to at least care for me and my brother EQUALLY. What's with the sexist-ness in this world? Girls are definitely higher IQ than guys, works harder than guys, more compassionate than guys. But still we have to FIGHT before we can actually get noticed! How long did we fight for studies and work and to be treated equally?? Yet, there are still people especially OLD CHINESE PEOPLE (not racist okay? I'm oso chinese) that favours guy grandchildren.
It's DAMN annoying let me tell you that. It's like, if I am in the same house at the same time with my bro, the whole day my granma will scold me for the little-est things and treat my brother oh-so-nicely. I got pretty pissed of this morning. I mean, can you BLAME me if PBA choose that time to fix some stupid water thing and cause destruction to the water system in our house?? (Technically, the destruction was no water running out of the taps) Therefore, I can't be expected to wash my plate after I eat right? So I put it beside the place my granma cooks. At last, she washed it for me and started scolding me about not washing my plates. I was like, " wtf?! Why can't you TELL me to go and wash my plate when the water can be used??" But I didn't say anything. No, I'm not scared (SCARED?? hahahahahaha!) But yes, I don't say anything coz if I shout back, the news will go to my aunt who will scold me, then my parents who will scold me, then my sister who will NOT scold me coz she's good natured but advise me, then my other aunt and granma who will scold me as well. So literally, my whole family will be involved in one little teensy-weensy bit of mistake.
In addition ( god am I writing an essay??), my brother did LOTS of mistakes. And you know what the adults say? "He's young, you should be a good example to him :)))))))))))))" One word: Fuck la. (Again, i will apologise to any people who feel insulted or any teacher who I am NOT surprised happened to be reading my blog :DD And yes, it's essential to put red colour and bold the two words :p)
Seriously, it started with my granpa, now my granma also kena 'chuan ran' (infected) by the disease which I like to call the, 'yangyang fan club disease' (BTW, yangyang is my brother) When I was 10, I could literally do EVERYTHING. Well, literally. And people didn't moon over me like they do to him. I admit, I am pretty much the loner and no-talker and not-as-bright-as-my-brother in front of my family (only my family :D You should see me in school :p) But can you BLAME me? Everytime I tried to get attention since the day he is born people say I'm jealous. The people around me, the not so old adults that TRY to ask me what's wrong, end up saying how good he is to me and how I should be like him. Yeah sure, be the crazy kid that takes a book and bangs his head in public and screeches like a cannibal gorrila? I'll pass.
As usual, I'M the jealous one, the LAME one, the ALWAYS-FOREVER-NOT-SMILING one.
Nope, as usual, I am the only one that is wrong, the one my parents tell everyone "oh, she can study better. But my son is the one that is the most happy-go-lucky one." Thet say it wistfully. But I know they're glad they ahd him. I'm actually glad too. My brother can make them happy. The burden is on him. I have given up LONG ago trying to please any member of my family. My trying is totally invisible in the looming shadow of my brother.
Trust me, I LOVE my brother. And if anyone tries to bully him. I'll literally fly like a lioness and rip that person's head off. I am even beginning to try and be nice to him. And change for my family. But they NEVER noticed that I don't talk back as much anymore when they scold me. I just cry secretly alone or read a book to calm me down (the crying is very seldom though :D). And they definitely NEVER notice that I'm trying to be good to my brother. You know why? Coz my brother is born out silly and innocent. The type of guy that always get bullied. He can't stick up for himself and is always sick. He's also a very well trained papa's boy. Therefore, everyone pays so much attention to him that they hardly pay any to me accept to always think and set in their mind I have a lot of faults. Why? Coz I'm not as weak as my brother (not weak in comparison), no one dares to mess with me, not bad in socialising, mostly does fairly well in studies (in their words, not mine) and basically acts like a lioness. I think they sometimes realise how emotional and sensitive I am inside and tries to make up for it. Maybe they don't know that I'm building a wall AWAY from them and hiding A LOT of things from them though..
The POINT is... I HATE holidays coz mostly, I have LESS attention than I have when I'm in school and come home for only quarter of a day. The quote 'happy holidays! :DD' just always forget to include me. School is much nicer. At LEAST your friends includes you and your teachers notices you sometimes (always :DD) because you are the noisiest kid ever :3 (I admit!! :D)
And the POINT is.. I HATE SEXIST ADULTS..... AND PEOPLE!! LITERALLY :D
P.S: Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT blaming my brother here. :DD
P.P.S: I'm blaming the people that spoiled him and ignored me :DDD
kthxbai~ :3
It's DAMN annoying let me tell you that. It's like, if I am in the same house at the same time with my bro, the whole day my granma will scold me for the little-est things and treat my brother oh-so-nicely. I got pretty pissed of this morning. I mean, can you BLAME me if PBA choose that time to fix some stupid water thing and cause destruction to the water system in our house?? (Technically, the destruction was no water running out of the taps) Therefore, I can't be expected to wash my plate after I eat right? So I put it beside the place my granma cooks. At last, she washed it for me and started scolding me about not washing my plates. I was like, " wtf?! Why can't you TELL me to go and wash my plate when the water can be used??" But I didn't say anything. No, I'm not scared (SCARED?? hahahahahaha!) But yes, I don't say anything coz if I shout back, the news will go to my aunt who will scold me, then my parents who will scold me, then my sister who will NOT scold me coz she's good natured but advise me, then my other aunt and granma who will scold me as well. So literally, my whole family will be involved in one little teensy-weensy bit of mistake.
In addition ( god am I writing an essay??), my brother did LOTS of mistakes. And you know what the adults say? "He's young, you should be a good example to him :)))))))))))))" One word: Fuck la. (Again, i will apologise to any people who feel insulted or any teacher who I am NOT surprised happened to be reading my blog :DD And yes, it's essential to put red colour and bold the two words :p)
Seriously, it started with my granpa, now my granma also kena 'chuan ran' (infected) by the disease which I like to call the, 'yangyang fan club disease' (BTW, yangyang is my brother) When I was 10, I could literally do EVERYTHING. Well, literally. And people didn't moon over me like they do to him. I admit, I am pretty much the loner and no-talker and not-as-bright-as-my-brother in front of my family (only my family :D You should see me in school :p) But can you BLAME me? Everytime I tried to get attention since the day he is born people say I'm jealous. The people around me, the not so old adults that TRY to ask me what's wrong, end up saying how good he is to me and how I should be like him. Yeah sure, be the crazy kid that takes a book and bangs his head in public and screeches like a cannibal gorrila? I'll pass.
As usual, I'M the jealous one, the LAME one, the ALWAYS-FOREVER-NOT-SMILING one.
Nope, as usual, I am the only one that is wrong, the one my parents tell everyone "oh, she can study better. But my son is the one that is the most happy-go-lucky one." Thet say it wistfully. But I know they're glad they ahd him. I'm actually glad too. My brother can make them happy. The burden is on him. I have given up LONG ago trying to please any member of my family. My trying is totally invisible in the looming shadow of my brother.
Trust me, I LOVE my brother. And if anyone tries to bully him. I'll literally fly like a lioness and rip that person's head off. I am even beginning to try and be nice to him. And change for my family. But they NEVER noticed that I don't talk back as much anymore when they scold me. I just cry secretly alone or read a book to calm me down (the crying is very seldom though :D). And they definitely NEVER notice that I'm trying to be good to my brother. You know why? Coz my brother is born out silly and innocent. The type of guy that always get bullied. He can't stick up for himself and is always sick. He's also a very well trained papa's boy. Therefore, everyone pays so much attention to him that they hardly pay any to me accept to always think and set in their mind I have a lot of faults. Why? Coz I'm not as weak as my brother (not weak in comparison), no one dares to mess with me, not bad in socialising, mostly does fairly well in studies (in their words, not mine) and basically acts like a lioness. I think they sometimes realise how emotional and sensitive I am inside and tries to make up for it. Maybe they don't know that I'm building a wall AWAY from them and hiding A LOT of things from them though..
The POINT is... I HATE holidays coz mostly, I have LESS attention than I have when I'm in school and come home for only quarter of a day. The quote 'happy holidays! :DD' just always forget to include me. School is much nicer. At LEAST your friends includes you and your teachers notices you sometimes (always :DD) because you are the noisiest kid ever :3 (I admit!! :D)
And the POINT is.. I HATE SEXIST ADULTS..... AND PEOPLE!! LITERALLY :D
P.S: Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT blaming my brother here. :DD
P.P.S: I'm blaming the people that spoiled him and ignored me :DDD
kthxbai~ :3
