Years had past, my friendship and family problems have not yet change to better... In fact, it's worse.... I know, it's probably my fault, again... as usual... everytime I do something, it is wrong. No one pays attention to me outside, my brother is the best....
I did try my best to be a good friend, that's the reason I risk myself in class to make teachers mad just so I can make my friends laugh. They are happy, then so am I... But still, nothing happens, what happens is that there are more friends leaving my side. Everyone has a best friend that stick up for each other during thick and thin. I have no one... Yes, they might occasionally notice me. But to them, their brains are like, "oh, this is the girl that make dumb jokes... whatever!" That's me, I'm starting to think I have a problem....
I try my best to be loved by my family. But everything I do is wrong... . What my brother can't do, I will.... But still, my brother wins the battle... I'm just the sore loser that puts on a stupid face and sulks.... Seriously, can you blame me? My parents love me, I know they do... But, it's hard to make them satisfied... As usual, the live wire of the family gets all tha attention...
To my teachers, I fail them. What they think of me, I dunno. But I'm definitely sure it's not good thoughts... no one would think of me as important in their lives... Coz the already have one...
~wish i can find soomeone that truly understands and love me with all his/her heart...
~sorry if this post offended anyone
~sorry to anyone i have hurt... i'll try not doing it again...
~God, tell me... am I doing the right thing? going one the right track? I'm confused...
