Umm, seriously~ what can a teenage girl rite about except school, unusual cravings for Domo-Kun^^
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| This is a Domo-Kun... in case you are wondering... |
And how she survive middle school without slitting her hands or committing suicide(close, but not yet).
Since this is my blog, I am not going to be private or anything. So I am just going to say...
I DUN RELI LIKE MY SEJARAH TEACHER!!!!
You can say I am rude, I do not respect teachers... But I am sure every single student in my school hates her. Why do I hate her?
~She said I was kpc...
I wasn't even talking to her!! SHEESH!!!
~She said she don't wanna give me sijil coz I said it's just a piece of paper.
It IS a piece of paper -.-|| Anyway, it's not really her choice...
I know, if she sees this... or anyone... I am in deep shit... but I wanna point out tht this is MY blog... I can write ANYTHING i want...
I am NOT insulting her... Nor am I trying to make people hate her... I's just my feelings... ya know~ So don't misunderstand....
Neways, I am stressed about exams, plus some other stuff... seriously, I'm gettng desperate.
I've never really felt that sad before in my life. I never thought a day would come when I actually knew the feelings of the people that commited suicide(dun worry, the feeling is under control... i'm not killing myself). I realised that, when the person is really desperate, you don't really care about life anymore. You feel like, happiness errupting when you think about ending it. However, based on my experience, you just need to oush all those things aay. Have a cry... in front of your friends... in public. Whatever. But you will be able to overcome the feeling.. Like me.
Think about it, you have the courage to commit suicide, slit your wrists.. but you don't have enough courage to cry in public? voice it out? express it? The first few stages are tough. But God created us with hope... so long as you believe in yourself, the pain will end. Soon, things will get better, life will seem bearable. You will wonder why had you ever thought of killing yourself? No, your pain won't dissapear, but it will lessen. No, you won't commit suicide because you force yourself to... you live because you don't have a reason to die.
~Dying for someone is worthless... living for someone is what makes the world go round. If i die everytime i face a problem in every life i have... Then, I will die a lot of times...
*I do not know if you agree... it's a great experience, really. To feel so depressed you don't wanna do anything except cry. But lived through it and tell the story. You might think I am strong, but no... I am not. Every human can cope with that. It's whether you want it, or not. You might think I am not hurt enough, maybe... but trust me. I never felt this depressed before in my life.
♥ It's up to you... to determine if this post is useless... or will it help?