~No one really like me, they just need me when I ask for help...
-Moon-
Everyone always likes him more, no matter what I do, they will always like and love him more. I have given up trying to compete. Why am I always sad and sullen when I get home? Coz I dun have a chance to be happy. He is there, causing all the happiness of the family. They told me, "when you come home, everything gets haywire."
I know I'm not wanted. Anywhere, school, house... any place with me is like a constant cloud of depression. But they didn't think of my feelings... No, they only blame me for putting on a sad face every time.
They glare at him through rose tinted glasses. Whenever he say something bad, I wll get blamed if I try to scold him. For instance, when I support my mum whenever he scold my mum. My mum scold me for being kpc and noisy.
~you know what, i don't care anymore...
Every second I'm at home, whichever home. I will hate it. Not because they don't feed me, but they can a;ways find something to pick on me... I have learnt a long time ago, never cry in front of them.. no matter how sad you might be. Never show that you have any sign of weakness... Never let them break you down. Never count on her to give you a hug and soothing words or him to comfort you.
~ Everything, must be kept inside myself, coz nobody understands...
I know, this is what teenagers mostly say, nobody understands them. Adults don't understand it, but it is true. Sometimes, we get depressed for no reason. That is when we put on a grim face, Seriously, what? you expect us to smile???? But no, they don't understand... No one in my family understands me...
Even as I'm writing this, she's scolding me and comparing me to him... oblivious to my hurt. I act nonchalant. Even cheeked her a little (i'm not proud of that). But she don't know my feelings. They think they are the only people with feelings. I seriously want to be good. But they never thought they did any wrong. The way they talk to me? They think they're right. But they're wrong
-Moon-
Everyone always likes him more, no matter what I do, they will always like and love him more. I have given up trying to compete. Why am I always sad and sullen when I get home? Coz I dun have a chance to be happy. He is there, causing all the happiness of the family. They told me, "when you come home, everything gets haywire."
I know I'm not wanted. Anywhere, school, house... any place with me is like a constant cloud of depression. But they didn't think of my feelings... No, they only blame me for putting on a sad face every time.
They glare at him through rose tinted glasses. Whenever he say something bad, I wll get blamed if I try to scold him. For instance, when I support my mum whenever he scold my mum. My mum scold me for being kpc and noisy.
~you know what, i don't care anymore...
Every second I'm at home, whichever home. I will hate it. Not because they don't feed me, but they can a;ways find something to pick on me... I have learnt a long time ago, never cry in front of them.. no matter how sad you might be. Never show that you have any sign of weakness... Never let them break you down. Never count on her to give you a hug and soothing words or him to comfort you.
~ Everything, must be kept inside myself, coz nobody understands...
I know, this is what teenagers mostly say, nobody understands them. Adults don't understand it, but it is true. Sometimes, we get depressed for no reason. That is when we put on a grim face, Seriously, what? you expect us to smile???? But no, they don't understand... No one in my family understands me...
Even as I'm writing this, she's scolding me and comparing me to him... oblivious to my hurt. I act nonchalant. Even cheeked her a little (i'm not proud of that). But she don't know my feelings. They think they are the only people with feelings. I seriously want to be good. But they never thought they did any wrong. The way they talk to me? They think they're right. But they're wrong
