I love this song... But sometimes, I wish that love will get me home. I try and try to love. But at last, i et dissapointment.
People in my life, my family. They never always support what I do. Every moment I'm at home. I'm in a war. I'm fighting against my family's insults on me. Now, they are nothing to me. Just feather light pricks on my soul. Only my parents can really make me cry now. They aren't the understanding mother that hugs you and tell you that things are gonna be alright. Since I'm small, I'm all on my own. I need to comfort myself.
Currently, I think I will be crazy one day. The person I love is confusing. And I wish I know what that person is thinking >< It hurts alot. But that person will never know. Coz I am not gonna tell. Ever. Maybe one day that person will realise. When I die or something.
School is the only place where I am happy. Not completely. But it's the place where I hope. Where I can see light. No, I don't confide my secrets to everyone. But I'm an extrovert. I feel better and stronger around people. That's why, I will never cry in school. Nothing will make me drop a tear there. Only at home will my tears fall. But as time passes. Even the tears are harder to fall. Maybe coz I'm so used to it that even if I wanna cry, no tears come out.
Life hurts. But no one knows. Coz around everyone, I act. I act happy in front of my friends. I act toughie in front of my teachers. I act feelingless in front of my family. That's mostly what I do in life. How good isit. I always wish that one day, Someone will come and hug me. Hold me in his/her arms and ask me to cry and tell out all my feelings. and maybe that person will be able to accept me for who I am and not what he/she wants me to be. That's all I want. Soemone who understands me and love me for who I am. Who accepts me. Wo can HUG me. I always have a special love for those who hug me :)) Specially female. Probably coz my mum never hug me. Note: NO. I AM NOT A LESBIAN -__-
Have you ever watched movies? Specially chinese dramas. Where people hang on to cliffs for dear life. I feel like that everyday. I am hurt most by that person. By that person that I have no reason to love. And everyday, I feel like I am trying to get up the cliff so that that person will see me. But everyday, someone will come along and kick my hands. So, I will fall. Almost. But I still managed to hang on, til today. One day, if my soul continue to shatter for that person. Maybe I'll finally fall down the cliff. The my life might not be so miserable anymore. But that person will never know what I feel. People tell me that person feels the same way bout me. But I'm confused, scared. And annoyed by my family who is never supportive on what I have done. But they don't know that whenever I wanna go to school or meet my friends. It's coz I'm tired of feeling so pressured at home all the time. Do a little bit wrong, I get scolded.I am happy around my friends, when I help out at school. When I talk. When i go to school. I don't feel so pressured then. evben though there is always something that hurts me there. But at least I get to feel that person's prescence. It's enough for me.
I really hope one day someone will understand me. I really hope one day someone will hug me and tell me it's alright. I hope someone will one day love me for who I am. I hope that one day someone will tell every family member of mine how I feel.
People in my life, my family. They never always support what I do. Every moment I'm at home. I'm in a war. I'm fighting against my family's insults on me. Now, they are nothing to me. Just feather light pricks on my soul. Only my parents can really make me cry now. They aren't the understanding mother that hugs you and tell you that things are gonna be alright. Since I'm small, I'm all on my own. I need to comfort myself.
Currently, I think I will be crazy one day. The person I love is confusing. And I wish I know what that person is thinking >< It hurts alot. But that person will never know. Coz I am not gonna tell. Ever. Maybe one day that person will realise. When I die or something.
School is the only place where I am happy. Not completely. But it's the place where I hope. Where I can see light. No, I don't confide my secrets to everyone. But I'm an extrovert. I feel better and stronger around people. That's why, I will never cry in school. Nothing will make me drop a tear there. Only at home will my tears fall. But as time passes. Even the tears are harder to fall. Maybe coz I'm so used to it that even if I wanna cry, no tears come out.
Life hurts. But no one knows. Coz around everyone, I act. I act happy in front of my friends. I act toughie in front of my teachers. I act feelingless in front of my family. That's mostly what I do in life. How good isit. I always wish that one day, Someone will come and hug me. Hold me in his/her arms and ask me to cry and tell out all my feelings. and maybe that person will be able to accept me for who I am and not what he/she wants me to be. That's all I want. Soemone who understands me and love me for who I am. Who accepts me. Wo can HUG me. I always have a special love for those who hug me :)) Specially female. Probably coz my mum never hug me. Note: NO. I AM NOT A LESBIAN -__-
Have you ever watched movies? Specially chinese dramas. Where people hang on to cliffs for dear life. I feel like that everyday. I am hurt most by that person. By that person that I have no reason to love. And everyday, I feel like I am trying to get up the cliff so that that person will see me. But everyday, someone will come along and kick my hands. So, I will fall. Almost. But I still managed to hang on, til today. One day, if my soul continue to shatter for that person. Maybe I'll finally fall down the cliff. The my life might not be so miserable anymore. But that person will never know what I feel. People tell me that person feels the same way bout me. But I'm confused, scared. And annoyed by my family who is never supportive on what I have done. But they don't know that whenever I wanna go to school or meet my friends. It's coz I'm tired of feeling so pressured at home all the time. Do a little bit wrong, I get scolded.I am happy around my friends, when I help out at school. When I talk. When i go to school. I don't feel so pressured then. evben though there is always something that hurts me there. But at least I get to feel that person's prescence. It's enough for me.
I really hope one day someone will understand me. I really hope one day someone will hug me and tell me it's alright. I hope someone will one day love me for who I am. I hope that one day someone will tell every family member of mine how I feel.
