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Friday, March 25, 2011

Postions...

In a class... there is always a:
~class clown
~class brain
~class drama queen
~the rich, pretty and snobbish
~the talkaholic
~teacher's pet (yeesh)
~jock
~art geek
~book worm
~shoe polisher(in league with teacher's pet, the spiteful ones that is)
~and the people that do not really have any jawatan coz they are the ones that sakisikan what the jawatan"ed" people do
However, as we get older. say, sec school. There is two new jawatan(s) that wipes the face of every snob, teacher's pet, brings courage and sticks up for the weak. And is a kinda all rounder. Everyone (and yes, i mean everyone) respects him/her at least a little and will think twice before kacauing him/her. She's not scared of anything, can make everyone hate a person she/he doesn't like and is the sworn enemy of a "dalang di sebalik" That person, is called, Random.
Before I get any further, the " dalang di sebalik" is kinda like a teacher's pet. Or should I say, TEACHERS' PET. They can be damn sweet, show off how smart and sensitive they are in front of easily manipulated people. Teachers, weak kids... etc. But behind their backs, he/she does things so that the person that they hate get into trouble. Then, they will look up at teachers with their puppy dog eyes and say someone bilied them. Naturally, the teachers believe them coz they are really good in education. But they do not know that they are spiteful. :)
Mostly, the Random can see through the "dalang di sebalik's" act. Then, she can tell those people, her/his friends about them. Random's friends are mostly people that is don't really give a damn about shit. They just do whatever they think is right. Randoms are not bulies. They mostly tries to kick a bully's ass and help the weak. But don't get me wrong, they are not monks who gives the weak people advice. Wel,, maybe they do, but not in a sentimental kinda way. Randoms wants people to stick up for themselves. And if she tells you and trains you and you are still a creep. She treats you like a floor. Not really aware that you even exist.
However, "daland di sebaliks" attracts people by their sweet talk. Like a Venus Flytrap, you would say. Most people is her/his puppet. And if there isn't a Random in school, and she puppeteers the teachers, then you're dead. Do you know? " dalang di sebaliks" only ACT good. When they do not need you... They won't be good to you anymore.
Which is why, if a Random hadn't appeared in your school yet (don't worry, they will... God is fair). try sticking up for yourself, you might even end up BEING the Random. As for " dalang di sebaliks" clean up your act before the Random come and knock you out :)
One word of advice, if the person teaches you to be bad, then she/he is not a Random. They might say a bit about kicking teachers' asses and making riots to idiotic bulies, but they will mostly give advice. They don't mostly give them out, so when they do... listen and listen well. Coz you have to remember, Randoms are kinda in the teachers' blacklist category, it takes a lot for them to stop and give you advice. Appreciate them. Randoms can be really smart and good at something. Mostly, not education. But something special that "dalang di sebaliks" don't have.
As for "dalang di sebaliks", not everyone is a "dalang di sebalik". Therefore, if you are a person that sticks up for yourself, don't go bashing every girl/guy that teachers like or their education is perfect. They might actually be nice. Give them a chance, be their friends. If they still act like dogs and bitches (sorry dogs, din mean to insult you) Then you advance :)
Note: Randoms give very single person a chance (or a lot) to prove themselves worthy. They are friends with everyone at least once.
"dalang di sebaliks" mostly give veryone a chance to feel good about themselves then ruin their confidence 100 times worse when they don't need the people anymore.
~Jus to tell you people that this post is completely general. Dun so perasan... 
And you can take this post as advice or a piece of shit. I dun care:)
Have a wicked day ;D

A teenager's feelings

Do anyone realise, our lives. (teenage lives) are very damn confusing? I'm now speaking in general. A teenager's feelings. Don't feel offended.
In school, our teachers say we can't speak a certain language. Yet, they speak it in the staffroom and with certain students. Morning and afternoon session also like that.
(I'm not mentioning which teacher, in case you perasan that it's you I can't do anything oso)
At home, parents always call us to speak the truth. Yet, when we tell them what really happened, they will scold us. Who DARES to tell them the truth???
In school, us prefects have to be hated by both sides. Students hate us cause we have to disagree with everything they do wrong. Teachers scorn us if we do one single tiny mistake.
PEOPLE do you know that us prefects have FEELINGS too????
At home, parents want us to tell our feelings. Our TRUE feelings. when we tell them about a fight with a teacher's pet, or tell them what we think is wrong about the way they teach us, our parents scold us. Many teenagers cut themselves or commited suicide. Why? Because our parents THINK they understand us. But they DON'T.
In school, the teacher sides with those students who does not tell the truth to them. For instance, they might hate the teacher so much that they can ouke just by seeing their face, but they wouldn't say anything. Instead, they talk behind the teacher's back. No teacher realises this. Whenever something goes wrong, they blame the students who tells out what they really feel about a certain teacher. Those people that tell the truth. Teachers, just to tell you something. Don't you know it is good for the students to say what they don't like about you? that way, you can change according to a student's point of view. Therefore, the students will like you more. The students who act good but bad behind? Are spiteful morons. I never act good in front of teacher coz I do NOT wanna be a spiteful moron. If I am good, then I truly like you and would wanna be good to you.
These words are said to you sdults in the teenagers' point of view. You guys may still be thinking you are right. Teachers might think they have no wrong and they can do whatevr they wnat coz they are teachers. Parents might think that they do not need to change. Why? Coz they are the one that earn money, feed us, take care of us, clothe us and out a roof over our head. But remember, without us, there is NO ONE for you to clothe, feed for. And parents AND teachers, do not regret after you see one of your students or children turn out to be a bad person or dissapeared from the human world. Remember, whatever we do, is learnt from you...
-This is a message from teenagers worldwide.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Frienship (for my English homework but I made this myself coz I have nothing better to do so don't copycat or u will kena^^)

The word friendship dawns on the mouth of the young and the old. Everybody needs friends. Without friends, our lives will be a dark ocean of sadness and loneliness.
  Many people often say, “You are my best friend,” and go to another friend with same sentence as well. Actually, best friends mean only one person that is most important to you. A kindred spirit. A person that understands you most. That is what we call a bet friend.
  However, there are also good friends and friends. We need them as well. One best friend is enough to keep you happily occupied for a while but not for long. A fun and jovial experience need to be shared. Sharing with friends can make us happier and feel loved.
  Needless to say, not every person is a true friend. And not every person on earth can stay loyal and help you through the consequences. Therefore, we need to be wise when choosing friends to avoid bitterness and hate.
  Nevertheless, there are still people on this world that can be counted as friends. That will be with us through thick and thin. The conclusion is, friends are important to us. And we have to learn to appreciate and help them in an understanding way to make the bind of friendship strong. XOXO
jie and mei^^
me, kor,may XOXO BFF foreva^^
wang~ understands me most^^ love ya!





























-Moon-

Thursday, March 17, 2011

~No one really like me, they just need me when I ask for help...
             -Moon-

Everyone always likes him more, no matter what I do, they will always like and love him more. I have given up trying to compete. Why am I always sad and sullen when I get home? Coz I dun have a chance to be happy. He is there, causing all the happiness of the family. They told me, "when you come home, everything gets haywire." 
 I know I'm not wanted. Anywhere, school, house... any place with me is like a constant cloud of depression. But they didn't think of my feelings... No, they only blame me for putting on a sad face every time. 
  They glare at him through rose tinted glasses. Whenever he say something bad, I wll get blamed if I try to scold him. For instance, when I support my mum whenever he scold my mum. My mum scold me for being kpc and noisy.
 ~you know what, i don't care anymore...
  Every second I'm at home, whichever home. I will hate it. Not because they don't feed me, but they can a;ways find something to pick on me... I have learnt a long time ago, never cry in front of them.. no matter how sad you might be. Never show that you have any sign of weakness... Never let them break you down. Never count on her to give you a hug and soothing words or him to comfort you.
 ~ Everything, must be kept inside myself, coz nobody understands...
I know, this is what teenagers mostly say, nobody understands them. Adults don't understand it, but it is true. Sometimes, we get depressed for no reason. That is when we put on a grim face, Seriously, what? you expect us to smile???? But no, they don't understand... No one in my family understands me... 
 Even as I'm writing this, she's scolding me and comparing me to him... oblivious to my hurt. I act nonchalant. Even cheeked her a little (i'm not proud of that). But she don't know my feelings. They think they are the only people with feelings. I seriously want to be good. But they never thought they did any wrong. The way they talk to me? They think they're right. But they're wrong

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Blessed be~

“May the circle be open and remain unbroken,
May the circle be open and forever in your heart.
Merry Meet, and Merry Part, till Merry we Meet again!”
~Incubus Succubus, May the Circle be Open

Do you believe in Witchcraft? I certainly do... I don't think it's weird, believing in stuff like the forces of nature, ghosts, spirits, demons... Supernatural stuff.
  When I was young, I always imagined myself as one of those super powered guys and chicks on TV... pretty lame right? But I still believe in Magick... Even till now... Everytime I want something, I beg the moon and the spirit of the Sun to listen to me and fulfill my dream... Not that I don't believe in God... It's just that, the moon and sun has a damn freakin' weird effect on me... Especially the moon... am I weird? Maybe... Crazy? Probably... XD
Whenever you are sad, need help or whatever... And you don't feel like saying it to anyone... Make a little prayer by your favourite part of nature... Or even whisper to your dreams...
~I may sound weird, but maybe... one day the spirit of Nature can help you endure the worst in your life...
**But I believe, the four elements has a power in them... and the spirit of the Moon will always spread the Light onto everyone...
blessed be....

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Love~

No matter how thy try and try
Under the moonlight of the goddess Nyx
Everything thy did thy did for them
Yet nobody noticed
The pain and sorrow
Of the young virgin
In the darkness of the falling stars...

Thy cry in the shine of the sun
And broke your heart to pieces every disappearance of light
The darkness of the night cannot beat the darkness inside
Breaking dawn indicates the start of life for some
But for you, my dear
The beginning of a holocaust
That burns thy feelings into nothingness...

You,
With the body of a small deer
Would not give up as thy soul
Stand strong and bright
And would not give up...

Everyday,
Doing whatever it takes...

For a smile
An approval
A pinch of care
Love                                               
Hope
And to be part of this world...

SMILE=APPROVAL=CARE=LOVE=HOPE=PART OF THIS WORLD:]
~will thy get thy wish?
Maybe drop a tear from the Great Goddess of Nyx?
Gambateh....

(this is the story about a someone I know, who only wanna get love and attention. So she did everything and even always embarass herself for attention... this poem is dedicated to her, made specially for her... And I am therefore not insulting any religion here...)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Dun sweat ==

Trying to make me scared? Or perhaps, cry?
Just to tell you that you have failed miserably...
To that "mo-mo" ren that have told teacher about what I had wrote in Facebook...
I don't care who that person is,
This post is to tell you that...
a) I don't care
b) Thanks for your "kindness" of letting me waste a bit of time away from class
c) I happen to be completely unaltered by what teacher marah me for writing in Facebook
d) Go find someone else to buli that will pay attention to you...
 ~i don't know you are searching for attention or what hell... but don't kacau me for I have no time for dumb games...
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P.S:
I do agree that I'm kinda rude when I am talking without looking at teachers... so teachers, I apologise. From now on I will promise to look deeply into your face everytime I talk to you.. And I am not joking, I am serious.
P.P.S:
I have an idea for our burger plan... Maybe we don't need to waste so much money.... 2 Suci^^

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Anthony Neely - Sorry That I Loved You


~i love this song so much coz it totally reflects my feelings...
But no regrets...
Hapi to meet you
I'll always pray for you in my dreams~
Gambateh<3


Friday, March 4, 2011

Swt-.-||

What is wrong with you:
1)You should realise that, despite your popularity among the elder people in the school... you are  totally NOT respected by everyone in your class....
2) Therefore, we will not listen to whatever choice you wanna make that doesn't make sense.
3) I, am not like the elder people in our school that will pamper you, listen to you... and give you all the popularity and things you need. They treat you like gold or diamonds, but don't forget I treat everyone like a human. A NORMAL human.
4) This school don't always treat the leaders like they rule everything. I will NOT listen to you even if you are a leader and yet you give dumb advice.
5) REMEMBER~ you might get liked by people now. Or people are just PRETENDING to like you... but that might not happen in the future. You life has just started...
6) Everyone had tried at least ONCE to like you and be your friend, the people that don't like you has their own reasons. It's probably your attitude. I had tried. MANY times to be your friend. But everytime, you bombed up your chance. I really hate to hate people. So don't worry, i don't hate you coz there are enough people to be hated in this wordl without hating you.
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Today is the worst day of exams in my life. My sejarah and math exam sucks.... I'm SO failing this test... (touch wood)
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I think my art teacher and my english teacher and my ex sejarah teacher is kinda cool^^
~trust me, it's a compliment coz seriously, i don't compliment teachers...
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~Life is colourful in the midst of darkness....
*created this phrase for my seni homework^^ XD
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Misunderstood~ and existence

  Seriously, I don't know what to do to you... So, for the time being, I'll act as though you do not exist in my life... And i hope you will act as though I'm invisible too.
Oh, BTW. Stop picking at me, if you think I care whether YOU like me or not... I don't. And no one else in this school cares anything about you accept how much they hate and despise you.
Look at your own reflection in the mirror before you start judging others. You are seriously not that bad.... Others might look at your outer appearance, but i mainly focus on personalities. If you can't show a good personality and professional enough to not express your feelings in a class... then, trust me... I will respect you more.
~To those who do not know who I am talking about, it's "The Egg" and if you still dun understand, ask me in school^^
  And no, I do not hate HER after she scolded us that day coz I feel she is... umm... a human? Seriously, I never really noticed her before. To me, she is "the-sweet-teacher-that-keeps-smiling-at-everyone". Now, she's "the-teacher-that-i-will-respect-as-she-proved-her-worth-to-me". Hehe~ before this, I can look at her freely as though she's just a freakin brick wall. Now, looking at her, I can feel... umm... a teensy bit of radiation of confidence radiating from her... LolxDD
~If you dunno who I'm talking about, ask me in school or Facebook...^^
Anyways~
  I'm not mad at you for scolding me in front of the whole club anymore... I was before this... but i hate hating people and since i already dislike someone.... i do not wanna dislike you anymore...  Waste of time and energy.... So, to all who knows about this... PEACE OUT^^
~ To all my frens that helped me when I am in my most sad and depressed, LOVE you guys SO much!!! I will DEFINITELY do the same to you!! MUAKS^^
P.S> I scared GEOGRAPHY EXAM!!!!!!!><
P.P.S> test week, anyone up for jumping down a building? hahaxDD

*** I noe all teachers hate me... but this post isn't to critisize anyone. Just to tell pple what I feel.... So, if anyone feel insulted by this,DON'T. Coz this is the only place where I can express my feelings in words so don't ruin it for me... if by any chance. Any teachers see this, you can choose to continue hating me.. I can't do anything...so zzzzz~