Cheers :D

I did not write for a very long time it seems (:

For the time period I was away, many things changed.

My heart, my soul was maybe misunderstood for being ripped into two. But it was never so :D

Whatever I did, I did it to stop myself from being hurt, from tearing for no reason.

Remember those moments when I post totally emo stuff on my blog?

Yeah, the things I do is to stop the emo-ness from happening again.

Stiil :d I'm up for another try :3

17/4 is a day where I will try (:

If I fail... I fail I guess :D

You won't know that I am talking about but the thing is

I'm doing this for love (:

Wish me luck xD

Anyway...

This is the feeling I've been trying to hide, even from myself for a while now :')

kthxbaii (:

have a nice April ;)

Oh BTw, my birthday was so perfect that day xD

Merentas Desa 2012 (:

Here are some of the activities we've done during merentas desa last saturday (:

One word. Weird.
This is obviously me :D And I'm not sure why I look like that. My friend Janet took it when I was doing goodness knows what :P
We ran (I walked) til our legs hurt like shyt. And when we reach back. I got insulted by my teacher and her favourite student for not being able to run :DDD Hardi har har :\ I guess they WERE joking. Too bad I don't feel amused (: Nah ┌∩┐(-_-)┌∩┐

Was altogether a fun experience :DD (accept for the insult/joke/idunreallycare) Don't have much to write now (: Will write an inspirational post the next time i on (:

kthxbaiii :D

stay tuned. xD

(: I'm too bored xD

So I just got through debate and public speaking without dying from nervousity (:
I think I pretty well did the crappest in the whole performance :DD In debate, I forgot to summarise :DDDD
So smart right? :""DDD
I'm stupid. :((
So today, I went and did some Choir Club stuff. My teacher told me that someone told her that I am a "qin kam siu jie" which means er... something like a precious lady who sits all day doing nothing with people serving her. I am NOT! I do things :/ Goodness knows who told her that. D: Not surprising who is it though (: DUH.
Gotta go now :D BTW. I HEART ADELE LIKE HELL :DD

Go Adele <3 :)

Nothing Else to say :x

I'm really really bored. So I'll just post this last thing before the first test starts :/ I'm scared. I don't wanna get to the bottom. So, I'm gonna study really hard. Hopefully, I can get decent marks :(
That day, I talked to socks again :) It's nice to talk to socks again :DD I missed that person ((: But I didn't see that person for.... 1 day and hadn't talk for a very long time dy :/ Hm... who knows, maybe that person has a new little person (':
Today, we had the Adele-lookalike teacher in class :DD She just realised that I talk as much as anyone does in a year and seem sceptical about it ((: Hey cikgu-cikgu and teacher-teachers sekalian (: It' actually GOOD to have a comedian in your class sometimes (: Appreciate it ;)
I guess I seriously have nothing better to write. So kthxbaiiii :D

Nights (:

Hello (:

I haven't wrote in my blog for a long time people. Sorry :O
I'm just so busy with from 3 :\ Like, if you're not doing homework, you're studying. Then you need to sleep :x (not that I study :PP)
Stuffs been kinda great lately (: The teachers in form 3 are alright I guess :P
BM teacher: Pn. Mas- hahahaha one of my fav :P
ENG: Ms. Chin
MT: Mr. Tan-He's... no words to describe xD
SC: Pn. Jamaliah again :DD- Really cute :P
GEO: Cik Anirah- OKLa :P
SEJ: Pn. Norrizah- She's nice (:
That's about all :P Nevermind the other subjects I'm just too lazy to write about it :D
Oh and my choir teacher is nice too :D Pn. Wong :PP Who always calls me baby even though I don't know why but it's nice anyway coz it make me sound younger xP
My mama ain't talking to me :( My school mama i mean (: Dunno why :O Sad :(( I hope she will talk to me or maybe she thinks I should go and talk to her :DD Okay :PP Maybe I will :DD I'm just scared she's biz :\ Sorry mama :x
Imma gonna participate in public speaking. Hope I can win :DD Kinda nervous though :P Weird eh? VANESSA TAN is nervous xD
Well anyways, I love you all. Below is a hand drawn from gel ink pen tattoo I did for myself until it washed off when I wash my hands :( Rate ya :D

My poor washed off tattoo :( The pic was  taken BEFORE it was washed off :x

CNY :D

CNY :)) Hope you went home and spent it with your family people :D

Here are some pics of the stuff I ate and my cousins and me and stuffs I wanna show you people :)

Enjoy xD

yee sang :D

er... it's called "pun choi" :D my auntie make de :)

sipek niceee :))

our food :D

That's all xD
Oh BTW, did I meantion I miss you ;)?

Chinese New year!! :)

Chinese New Year is coming. Basically, I can't wait for chinese new year because of three things. And I'm gonna be totally honest about it :)
1) Angpow
2) Wearing new clothes :D
3) Food xD
During chinese new year, the food in our family rocks :PP And who doesn't want angpow? As for new clothes... Well, the thing is, I'm a girl so... Yeah.
Thing I look forward to before new year:
1) New clothes :DDDD
2) New accessories :DDDD
3) New shoes :DDDDDDDDD (still haven't find the right one yet :(()
4) New bag (?) :D
Today, I'm gonna tell you guys a bit about Chinese New Year. This festival is celebrated by the chinese to celebrate the new year on the Lunar calendar. Yes, new year for the english-huan is 1st of Jan every year. But the chinese calendar is a bit later :)
Do you know why we put fireworks during chinese new year? Yeah, partly because it's fun watching the expressions of the little ones in our family when we big kids are brave enough to light up a particularly scary and loud firework and they will be like, "wah...." and run into the house :DD
But the real reason chinese light fireworks during CNY is because of tradition. In the past, there's a ferocious monster that kills the people of the villages and terrorises everyone. The monster's name is, "nian". Yepp... You're getting the story aren't you? :) Anyway, to scare this huge monster, they light up those loud firecrackers to scare the living daylights of the monster thus, chasing it away from the village. Which is why in chinese, CNY is named, "guo nian". Meaning the departure of the huge monster that killed hundreds from the village.
Well, I think that's the story...
Will try to post pics of my CNY with my family this year :DD Sometimes I'm just too lazy to post though :P
Anyway, I got an angpow from the school today :D All the Chinese girls get one. Don't worry la, RM4 nia :PP But still happy la. At least the school cares :) And someone put the kind of Chinese new year songs that's old fashioned. You know, the high pitched types. Even us Chinese kids can't tahan xD
So this chinese new year, go home and celebrate it with your family. Don't give stupid excuses like, "I got alot of work to do!" or "Aiya... anytime meet oso can wan mah... Now Chinese new year I want go kai kai la". Yeah, you can meet your family anytime you want but it holds a significant meaning when you go home and celebrate the starting of the lunar calendar with your family. Remember, old people don't really care how much money you send them or how many stuff you buy them. To them, these are just valueless stuff created by man. What really matters to them is to see you come home and eat their home cooked food. Obviously, your parents and family ain't gonna force you home coz they just want you to be happy. But when you're enjoying a vacation or doing work frantically, think about how your family is feeling. It's not worth to hurt your whole family just for your own happiness :D So if you're planning to ignore your family members this CNY, go fuck yourself :3
Wish you guys a happy, healthy and prosperous (as usual :D) year ahead :D
For old people, hope you live for a thousand years and bloom with everlasting health :)
For the young, hope you happy, find your true love (um... xD) and score straight As in UPSRla, PMRla, SPMla... Whatever stupid exams you have every year :D
For the married, hope you give birth to 10 in a year :D And sparkle with the "passion" *wink wink* of marriage
For the single, don't worry la :D Everyone is destined to meet your other half :) Have patience and hope that the tree of love grows with beautiful blooms of happiness for you :)
For my family, I wish you will get everything you wish for :D
For my friends, ohana :P I wish that everyone that hurts you will reap what they sow :) And I want to tell you guys that I will always be there for you guys no matter whatever shyt happens :3
For my Chinese teachers I hope you will... Um... bloom like a lotus of wisdom and love :) (honestly, I'm not sure what I'm talking bout xD)
kthxbai :DD