Happiness and Boredom

Yesterday, someone gave me a piece of the tree. The piece said is about self- happiness. I pretty much read it before... I can easily just throw it aside, bored. But the reason why I am keeping it now is, (and even thinking of laminating it) is coz for the first time ever... Someone BESIDES my mum and dad actually HOPES that I am happy.
It's weird... I never taught someone would spend some time to actually FIND something to tell me to be happy. I'm touched =') Ad that person who knows I'm talking bout. I hereby say a big thanks to you =) I finally feel like someone still hopes I'm happy in this world.
~Thanks a lot...
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Today, someone scolded me and Wang like hell. She thinks I'm mad at her because of that. Actually, she thinks a lot of things. But actually, I DO NOT hate her for scolding me. In fact, I just sat there and listen to her drone on and on and on.
Basically, I only talk back and argue a lot with the people I care for and love. So, I didn't really say anything. She said she wanna "talk" to us. But it ended up we kena scold...
I dun blame her for that =) dun worry... but making my fren cry, is another story....

-END OF TIME-

I'm not gonna write anything bad or anything sad anymore. Happy? Sadness and anger. i can keep to myself. No one needs to know. I've coped for so long. Adding a little extra pain won't kill me yet.
Thanks for the talk. Thanks for everything. I will listen, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
To all my friends? You guys had been great =) But I'm gonna quit writing those bad things. Not coz I'm a coward... =p It's something else. One day, you guys will understand.
Wang Sei Sei. I know you really wanna know, even though you act as though you don't wanna know just to make me happy. Don't worry, it's nothing. It's just I will like to have a bit of privacy. Neways, don't feel worried. I'm okay =D In fact, haha... I'm not even SAD.
Why I did not show my mum that post? Coz
When the birds chirp happily in the air...
It's time for the nocturnals to nap~
That is why =|

Before I end this post... this is a song to mark the end-Whitney housten and Mariah carey-When you Believe
~I trust... one day if you believe... miracles will happen

When the darkness is so dense that you fall,

Find the light...

Cause' in every dark

There is a light...

And in every light...

There is a way~♥

Mother's Day

  This Mother's day, I didn't make a card. Or anything -.- I'm SUCH n unfillial daughter. but I am going to write a post that can make her touched. =) The idea is given by Kor... mostly =p But it's MY isi...so..

 Year 1

When I was born... Merely a little baby... 

The family rejoiced as you held me in your arms.

But i knew, no arms would be warmer,

And no heart happier...

Than yours...

Year 2

The first word I learnt was "mum-mum"

Typical, I need to eat

But the second word was mama..

Coz I knew, that the pair of warm arms that held me tight...

Will always give me the food and shelter I need.

Through the roughest weather and storms...

You're the building that keeps me safe from harm...

Year 3

I learnt how to walk by now...

Every time I wobble...

Your heart stops beating a moment...

Will she fall?

You're the first one that rises from the chair to keep me safe.

Year 4

I'm a scrawny git...

Pretty ugly for a girl...

People talked behind you...

But in your heart,

No one is prettier than me,

Coz I'm your daughter...

And beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Year 5

The first time I went to hospital for hurting myself...

I spinned around and around a pole...

Not heeding anyone's orders for me to stop...

I cried like ell that night and stayed in hospital...

You were with me all night...

Weren't you mum?

Year 6

Kindergarten!

I am gonna mix with kids my own age...

Your heart beats fast the whole day... 

What if she falls? Got bullied?

But I made home safely...

You breathed easily again.

Year 7

Stnadard 1!

Whoa... It's SCHOOL now

You probably was worried bout me...

But you act nonchalant.

So I never knew the answer.

Every moment...

I knew you cared for me... even though you weren't there.

Year 8

I was staying in ama's house...

You were afraid I would be scared..

You grieved...

I know...

For that... you made the best mum of my life....

Year 9-12

I made it through primary school safely... =) 

Because you made sure y path of life was safe

Year 13

Secondary school made you scared for me... what if someone bullies me?

You've heard secondary school is a BAD BAD place...

Mum,

I made it out alrght...

And I won't forget the advice you gave me...

Year 14

Here i am now... happy and strong... because of you... Love you mum...

I'm not finished yet!!!!

Just to tell you. In my whole life, you acted as if you don't care. But I know, you just want me to be independent and strong enough. So that no one will bully me. When my UPSR results came out. You were the first one to see my joy. You acted nonchalant again. But I knew you are happier than dad to see me succeed. I can't remember when I was a baby... You held me protected in your belly for nine months, suffering again when I was born. there are a lot of things you had done for me. You just don't wanna tell me. Coz hat's who you are. Bt mom, I know... Without you, my life has no meaning, my body has no soul, and my music don't have a melody. Without you, I won't be existing.

You are not the type to hug and kiss. I know. You act nonchalant. I know.

But do you know?

That you are the best mum not because you are the richest and give me the most things.

You are the best coz you made me hate you for acting nonchalant. But actually trying to make me independent and strong.

You are the best coz you sacrificed every happiness just to give me what I want.

You are the best... coz...

You tried your best o give us the best.

And I will never forget thet.

I won't say I love you... coz it won't be enough...

Your love for me... I can't give so much back to you in this life...

The best I can do... is pray for your happiness

This is for you mummy =D

~LOve you mu... a million zillion times... 

Hope you like it!!!!

My new hair~ =p and stuff

So, I'm gonna start with my newest haircut =) hope you like it!

smiling the type of smile that will look horrible with my old hair =p

~Well, this is about my hair ^^

 Next, is about today... And Wednesday... I know that "people" have found I what I'm writing in my blog.... So what??? Let them read =p
Wednesday...
Sejarah class... The usual boredom. Last year's Sejarah was better. The teacher had a bit of sense of humour. This year? wow... Unbelievably "NICE". Neways... I VOLUNTEERED  to write on the board for the teacher... I VOLUNTEERED. hello, I don't like her. And I volunteered coz no one else wanted to. And the "cute" teacher's pets had already volunteered. Unfortunately, my act of helping was wrong I guess... The teacher came up to me after I wrote and said, "nampaknya tulisan kamu di buku lebih cantik daripada di papan hitam.." I am outrageously MAD!!!! Seriously... I am NEVER volunteering again... Unless.. well... if I had an idea in mind =x not gonna say anything! haha...
I stormed back to my place. Muttering, "Cikgu tak suka sya jangan panggil saya tulis la!!" I think she din hear... I shoulda said louder. But I still had an ounce of respect for her. I didn't want a full scale fight. any day now, that fight will appear. So if any of the teachers see this. Since they like seeing my blog so much... can tell her=)
Today...
I went to sit at my friend christinna's palce when she was out. Coz my place make my abilities to see the board 0% outta 100%. And neways, I'm getting a bit lonely coz Kor keep talking to Vivina without me. When I went there, my Sejarah teacher DELIBERATELY asked me to sit back my place! Of all the nerve! Seriously! It's MY BUTT! Does it matter wHERE I place it???
I don't wanna fight. But she's getting on my nerves. Again. anytime now and she's gonna get a whiff of what I can do =D
I know all the teachers think I'm a stinkin brat that don't respect teachers... You're wrong. i respect all the teachers except the ones that betray me and the ones I hate for some reason. You can perasan I don't care =) Siapa yang makan cili... dia yang rasa pedasnya. Pn. Bibi taught me that phrasa. She's been using it a lot lately... telling everyone how wrong isit to write stuff bout teachers in blogs and facebook and stuff... Hmmm... hinting to me? WOW! I'm SOOooooooo "GUILTY" When hell freezes over!
~BTW, don't get me wrong... not trying to be bad or anything here. Just merely stating that... teachers... I really do respect all of you. Just... don't make me not respect you... Or.... well... even I don't know. =)
~Oh, and FYI people that betray me... won't get really nice lives ya know... So, DON'T betray me! =D And I'll be good to you... =) Not that I don't know who you are =) Just giving you a chance. Go on! spread the rumour! All the kids are on MY side =p And if my nerve breaks..... =x

**Then all hell will break loose



Wo zhi dao BY2

I listened to the song Wo Zhi dao By2 for loads of times... Although my chinese sucks, I'm starting to realise what the song meant....
I'll write it down using 'A' and 'partner' ok?
A left partner...
Thinking partner will be better without A..
Partner will leave happier...
But partner felt miserable
And A can't let go of partner...
So before A left...
A smiled and asked partner to jiayou(good luck)
When A left...
There are tears streaming down  A's cheeks..
Partner knew that...
But their love... has ended.
I think the whole point of this song in my point of view is...


A left Partner to give Partner a better life...

A knows Partner will suffer with A..

So,

When A left Partner...

A pretended to smile and jiayou Partner...

Just to let Partner know that A don't really care anymore...

But as A left...

There are tears in A's eyes...

Because...

A made the hugest sacrifice in Love...

A sacrificed A's own happiness...

To mke Partner happy....

~By doing that... A loved Partner with a love that can be in line with parently love...

Because that's what our parents do, sacrifice their happiness for ours...

And I'll definitely do the same....

To my Loved One

Duhh...

  Time to study... fullstop. Period. No more onlining so much. I will finish my homework by tonight an revision all day on Monday. Lucky got holiday =)
  BTW, a bit miserable bout some things. best not to say here. Haha... BTW, if you wanna add me in Facebook, it's sapphiredestiny@ymail.com. Follow me and I will follow you back 100%. =) my plurk is www.plurk.com/twilightangel97 =D Add if you want... /3/

New moon...

In the night of a thousand stars, 

In the midst of a hundred smiles...

St the point of a thousand despair...

In the dawn of an acted play...

A New Moon is born~

Stronger....

Than before....

No more tears shall be shed

Nor any blood be sacrificed...

Only the strongest...

Survives~