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Friday, March 18, 2011

Frienship (for my English homework but I made this myself coz I have nothing better to do so don't copycat or u will kena^^)

The word friendship dawns on the mouth of the young and the old. Everybody needs friends. Without friends, our lives will be a dark ocean of sadness and loneliness.
  Many people often say, “You are my best friend,” and go to another friend with same sentence as well. Actually, best friends mean only one person that is most important to you. A kindred spirit. A person that understands you most. That is what we call a bet friend.
  However, there are also good friends and friends. We need them as well. One best friend is enough to keep you happily occupied for a while but not for long. A fun and jovial experience need to be shared. Sharing with friends can make us happier and feel loved.
  Needless to say, not every person is a true friend. And not every person on earth can stay loyal and help you through the consequences. Therefore, we need to be wise when choosing friends to avoid bitterness and hate.
  Nevertheless, there are still people on this world that can be counted as friends. That will be with us through thick and thin. The conclusion is, friends are important to us. And we have to learn to appreciate and help them in an understanding way to make the bind of friendship strong. XOXO
jie and mei^^
me, kor,may XOXO BFF foreva^^
wang~ understands me most^^ love ya!





























-Moon-

Thursday, March 17, 2011

~No one really like me, they just need me when I ask for help...
             -Moon-

Everyone always likes him more, no matter what I do, they will always like and love him more. I have given up trying to compete. Why am I always sad and sullen when I get home? Coz I dun have a chance to be happy. He is there, causing all the happiness of the family. They told me, "when you come home, everything gets haywire." 
 I know I'm not wanted. Anywhere, school, house... any place with me is like a constant cloud of depression. But they didn't think of my feelings... No, they only blame me for putting on a sad face every time. 
  They glare at him through rose tinted glasses. Whenever he say something bad, I wll get blamed if I try to scold him. For instance, when I support my mum whenever he scold my mum. My mum scold me for being kpc and noisy.
 ~you know what, i don't care anymore...
  Every second I'm at home, whichever home. I will hate it. Not because they don't feed me, but they can a;ways find something to pick on me... I have learnt a long time ago, never cry in front of them.. no matter how sad you might be. Never show that you have any sign of weakness... Never let them break you down. Never count on her to give you a hug and soothing words or him to comfort you.
 ~ Everything, must be kept inside myself, coz nobody understands...
I know, this is what teenagers mostly say, nobody understands them. Adults don't understand it, but it is true. Sometimes, we get depressed for no reason. That is when we put on a grim face, Seriously, what? you expect us to smile???? But no, they don't understand... No one in my family understands me... 
 Even as I'm writing this, she's scolding me and comparing me to him... oblivious to my hurt. I act nonchalant. Even cheeked her a little (i'm not proud of that). But she don't know my feelings. They think they are the only people with feelings. I seriously want to be good. But they never thought they did any wrong. The way they talk to me? They think they're right. But they're wrong

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Blessed be~

“May the circle be open and remain unbroken,
May the circle be open and forever in your heart.
Merry Meet, and Merry Part, till Merry we Meet again!”
~Incubus Succubus, May the Circle be Open

Do you believe in Witchcraft? I certainly do... I don't think it's weird, believing in stuff like the forces of nature, ghosts, spirits, demons... Supernatural stuff.
  When I was young, I always imagined myself as one of those super powered guys and chicks on TV... pretty lame right? But I still believe in Magick... Even till now... Everytime I want something, I beg the moon and the spirit of the Sun to listen to me and fulfill my dream... Not that I don't believe in God... It's just that, the moon and sun has a damn freakin' weird effect on me... Especially the moon... am I weird? Maybe... Crazy? Probably... XD
Whenever you are sad, need help or whatever... And you don't feel like saying it to anyone... Make a little prayer by your favourite part of nature... Or even whisper to your dreams...
~I may sound weird, but maybe... one day the spirit of Nature can help you endure the worst in your life...
**But I believe, the four elements has a power in them... and the spirit of the Moon will always spread the Light onto everyone...
blessed be....

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Love~

No matter how thy try and try
Under the moonlight of the goddess Nyx
Everything thy did thy did for them
Yet nobody noticed
The pain and sorrow
Of the young virgin
In the darkness of the falling stars...

Thy cry in the shine of the sun
And broke your heart to pieces every disappearance of light
The darkness of the night cannot beat the darkness inside
Breaking dawn indicates the start of life for some
But for you, my dear
The beginning of a holocaust
That burns thy feelings into nothingness...

You,
With the body of a small deer
Would not give up as thy soul
Stand strong and bright
And would not give up...

Everyday,
Doing whatever it takes...

For a smile
An approval
A pinch of care
Love                                               
Hope
And to be part of this world...

SMILE=APPROVAL=CARE=LOVE=HOPE=PART OF THIS WORLD:]
~will thy get thy wish?
Maybe drop a tear from the Great Goddess of Nyx?
Gambateh....

(this is the story about a someone I know, who only wanna get love and attention. So she did everything and even always embarass herself for attention... this poem is dedicated to her, made specially for her... And I am therefore not insulting any religion here...)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Dun sweat ==

Trying to make me scared? Or perhaps, cry?
Just to tell you that you have failed miserably...
To that "mo-mo" ren that have told teacher about what I had wrote in Facebook...
I don't care who that person is,
This post is to tell you that...
a) I don't care
b) Thanks for your "kindness" of letting me waste a bit of time away from class
c) I happen to be completely unaltered by what teacher marah me for writing in Facebook
d) Go find someone else to buli that will pay attention to you...
 ~i don't know you are searching for attention or what hell... but don't kacau me for I have no time for dumb games...
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P.S:
I do agree that I'm kinda rude when I am talking without looking at teachers... so teachers, I apologise. From now on I will promise to look deeply into your face everytime I talk to you.. And I am not joking, I am serious.
P.P.S:
I have an idea for our burger plan... Maybe we don't need to waste so much money.... 2 Suci^^

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Anthony Neely - Sorry That I Loved You


~i love this song so much coz it totally reflects my feelings...
But no regrets...
Hapi to meet you
I'll always pray for you in my dreams~
Gambateh<3


Friday, March 4, 2011

Swt-.-||

What is wrong with you:
1)You should realise that, despite your popularity among the elder people in the school... you are  totally NOT respected by everyone in your class....
2) Therefore, we will not listen to whatever choice you wanna make that doesn't make sense.
3) I, am not like the elder people in our school that will pamper you, listen to you... and give you all the popularity and things you need. They treat you like gold or diamonds, but don't forget I treat everyone like a human. A NORMAL human.
4) This school don't always treat the leaders like they rule everything. I will NOT listen to you even if you are a leader and yet you give dumb advice.
5) REMEMBER~ you might get liked by people now. Or people are just PRETENDING to like you... but that might not happen in the future. You life has just started...
6) Everyone had tried at least ONCE to like you and be your friend, the people that don't like you has their own reasons. It's probably your attitude. I had tried. MANY times to be your friend. But everytime, you bombed up your chance. I really hate to hate people. So don't worry, i don't hate you coz there are enough people to be hated in this wordl without hating you.
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Today is the worst day of exams in my life. My sejarah and math exam sucks.... I'm SO failing this test... (touch wood)
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I think my art teacher and my english teacher and my ex sejarah teacher is kinda cool^^
~trust me, it's a compliment coz seriously, i don't compliment teachers...
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~Life is colourful in the midst of darkness....
*created this phrase for my seni homework^^ XD
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