My fav song...

I love this coz it's the song that makes me feel..... hm... i'm nt sure

Distance

Can only see you in the distance,

Always holding back,

Never getting close to you

Know you'll never love me back

Looking wistfully hoping things will get better,

It doesn't 

And it will never get better

The more further away the distance of the hearts

The harder the pain is to be bear

Do you know? 

Hate is the strongest feeling in the same lines as love

And making me hate you

Won't make me forget you, ignore you, or get on with my life.

Some things you all wanna know bout me?

a) I'm NOT lesbian

b) I have NO grudges against bisexuals

c) I never have any feelings

d) If I hate someone, I will hate that person til very bad

e) If I love a person, I will love even though that person hates and try to push me away

f) If I cry, (I tak pernah cry in school) it means something is very VERY wrong

g) If I do something to hurt you, it means I have a reason for doing so

h) I love you, not as what you think I love you for. But of the love that I seldom and rarely experienced. Further details? Ask Wang Sei Sei

i) Wang Sei Sei won't tell you if you ask her =D unless I say so =)

j) I'm sick of you avoiding me or whatever fcuk you are doing. What's your FCUKING problem>>????

How I wish that you can love me the same way I love you... =]

Feelings in video

These are my feelings in video:
I love you no matter if you are the dumbest and most heartless person on earth

Yet, sometimes... i wish

When I met you, you're the one that

I'll

Do you know?

When you push me away, I freakin wish

Who do you think you are? I'm a human as much as you are

I can't push you away, Why can you? How? Teach me

So...

....:] Conclusion? I can live without anyone in my life. But my life will be empty without you telling me what is love =]
But I know...

So, this song is for you =]

And I'll pray for you everyday, just so you are happy... 
kthxbai =']

Trip to Butterfly Farm

Okay, no time to be emo. I just wanna tell bout this trip. THEN i'll think about being emo =]
Taking pics are fun. Enough to take my mind away from emo stuff for a day ^^

It's... uhh doing things that a normal butterfly will do xD

Here are the pics =DD

I like this butterfly =] One of my favourites.

TARANTULAAAAA!!!!! XD

That's my bro's hand. He's shaking like hell and damn scared. LOL

Nice riteee??? I mean the butterfly =D

I damn love this. My mum saw and was like, WAH! so nice! take a pic of it. =] I

This is me =] DUH~ I look like a girl with wings protruding outta my back ><

This is a Malaysian Giant Millepede :3

Er... I think it's called a... um. I forgot. xD

Look like pearls :D
I enjoyed this trip~

I totally enjoyed this trip! The butterflies are all around. I was scared at first. But after a while, it was OK =]

Anyways, my mum saw a butterfly somewhere on our trip. And she wantd to take a pic of it. But she was yelling excitedly that the butterfly flew away =D HAHA. Too excited

All in all, this is a time where I really took all the pics that I wanted. These are the few ones that I loved most. Hope you like it :D

kthxbai~ =]

Part of what you wanna know bout me

Family, friends and teachers.

You guys wanna know why I'm so close with Wang Sei Sei (Uh... maybe nt the teachers) 

I'll tell you.

Why the hell do I alk to her every night even though we spent all day in school?

Why do I always hang out with her?

I go everywhere with her.

No, we're not lesbians (No offense to lesbians)

No, we're NOT a couple

We are merely friends. 

It' just that we are close, coz we're binded by secrets.

And I'm close to her coz she's the only person in the whole universe to know most of my secrets.

And she is the one that backs me up when all of you are busy pointing out y faults.

But never wondering what causes my faults.

She's the one that advises me

And is the best counsellor not coz she tells me my good sides

It's coz she tells me the TRUTH

When all of you are spying, lying or telling empty truths to me.

In my most emoest moments.

She is there.

And if you think she is a bad influence, think again.

If she's not there, or you guys simply accuse us of doing things we did not do

There's no knowing what will happen to me.

You wanna know why?

Coz in front of everyone, I act like I'm feelingless

In front of my buddies, I act happy

I never let one drop of tear fall in front of you guys currently, did you guys realise?

I can control my feelings, but when to many things are cooped inside, they will break my metal walls.

And at that time, I can do anything.

Throw a fit? Kill some birds?

Even I don't know. =]

This post is not to rebel any of you

Or go against anybody's wishes.

It's to tell you what I feel.

And I'm not supporting Wang, coz she's my lesbian partner or an partner or she hypnotised me or whatever nonsense you're thinking

I'm supporting her coz,

When you are all blinded by my mistakes

She helped me live with all my unstable feelings

And while all of you hate me without finding a reason

She helps me find a path, even though it's a small one

To walk through another phase of my life.

Thx dude =]

And if any of you wanna find out bout me? Say it to my face. 

But if I tell you guys what I feel

Don't start getting defensive and upset.

I've had enough.

No one's gonna play with my feelings anymore

Period.

Current Affairs

  Life's been pretty tough lately. Nothing seems to go right. I don't mid mistakes. But I can't stand disappointment. It's like, claustrophobia, you know? It's a phobia like, when you are caged in a small place with no place to move. Yeah, I'm feeling that. Some things are just so confusing! The people I love most of all made me feel that way. Sometimes, I don't know if they care for me out of duty, love or sympathy.

  Tears well up sometimes. But somehow, after one or two drops I can't cry anymore. Maybe coz I'm used to not crying. Not even to myself. It's sort of like, building a thick wall of the strongest materials I can find so that nobody can hurt me, nobody can make me break down. But, you keep things from coming in, things inside you can't come out. It hurts... 

  Sometimes, I just wish I can write happier things in my blog. Sometimes, I also wish that I can fall asleep forever and think of nothing else...

Then maybe, my tears need not freeze in my heart and cause pain =] I'm young and might not understand love, but I do love very much..