Design this design that....

So, I have an appointment to design Hari Kantin banner and flyers tomorrow for my class. In addtion, I have to design school T-shirt coz I'm in Kelab Rekacipta.
Morover, I have to design badsheet for my Seni class.
I have not done anything accept a bit of the school T-shirt
TT
~my life is SUCH a mess...
Got scolded by Ms. Pam today...
She scold me coz I sat at the corridor, less than five metres away from my class which is at the canteen.
Or maybe coz I shout...
Whatever,
a) I din shout at her
b) The corridor dun belong to her
When she went off a little way, I shouted... "kuan ni pi shi!!!!!!" (means none of ur business!")

I think she heard coz she turned and looked. My friend Wang say I should have waited and say, "yes, you la!" at her... But I walked off. I get enough of people scolding me... no need add one more teacher. -___-

Then, when I wait for Emily to finish the grill, she came and asked me whether the stairs one grill close ady anot... I felt so mad at her that i din look at her... i just nod. Then she ask again (-___-) I looked at her and said, YES!

Dunno why, when sh scold me... i feel like waana cry... yes, my whole day is shitty... But I will never cry if scolded by another teacher... Jeez... i'm going crazy @@

Dunno why alwasy she scold me... i be so sad... She today look at me like wanna kill me like dat... When she did that... I feel like shouting... "hate til like that! kill me la!!!!!!!!!"

haix :(

I wonder when am I gonna fall inso that there will be someone there for me everyday....

~I'm single... :3 I know, weird kid who doesn't have a guy... probably a freak...

But I see the world in another way... so, i appreciate love more :)

Give up jor....

Why, always when I need someone, no one there. When someone needs me, I have to be there?
I don't care liao... you all wanna talk to me cum talk... dun want fuck off.
You want ask me help you, don't forget me when you wanna do something.
Yes, I am single. Bt not coz I am a lame and plain girl, it's just I don't find anyone suitable yet.
I harass you in school. But when you need help, have you forgotten who helped you?
You talk behind my back, you think I am wrong
When I talked behind you, do you know that YOU are wrong?
I don't care d... Sheesh, waste of my time
~nah o0o for those pple that did all of the things above -___-
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Rumah Biru today... pass lompat jauh, tinggi and lontar peluru -__- (cnt believe i passed all three :D)
I lompat tinggi... practise time more than 5 times oso cnt pass... sprained my hip TT
Really do time, I cnt blive I paseed (woots!) But sprained my finger 2x T.T
Damn pain okay?
Pn. Annor was like, " Vanessa, are you okay?"
I'm so glad that she was worried about me.
Coz I don't think my mum will worry bout me like that...
It's such a nice feeling, to feel cared for :)
Then, we followed the Wimpy Kid's book and played the "cheese touch" game...
lame aite?
xDD
But it's fun... we ran around like maniacs (actually, it was the Fungus touch)
The Pn. hanum was like, " mereka main lari-lari!!! blablablablablablabla"
I was like, "shut the hell up -.-" (don't worry, I didn't say it out loud xP)
There is like, more than 10 teachers there, seeing us run here and there laughing...
They just smiled and continue chatting....
And That Pn. hanum's mouth HAVE to say something.
Seriously....
Irritating much?????
If you say all the teachers scold somemore nvmind... But only her. When she complained to the teachers, they didn't even dO anything.
They probably just smiled and act as though their butts are too heavy for them to stand up to scold us :)
At that time, I loved every single one of them :)
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Got my Sony Earphones today... Thanks to my big sis... she gave hers to me :) Thanks jie :p

April Fools' day

APRIL FOOLS' DAY!!
I'm happy and sad. But let me dwell on the happiness first :)
Today fooled a few form 1 girls ^^ Ker Fei and uh... I forogt her name coz I always do XPP Sori ya!
They actually believed :p
Lols~
Form 2 girls got a few la... but they all mroe harder coz they noe d... :( no fun!
Then me, Wang and Kitty decide wanna fool the teachers... We plan to fool our Sej teacher. but first, we go fool Ms.Pam. But Pn. Jeya pass... So we try fooling her. She smiled and say, "I know it's April Fools' Day". We were like, "Jeez! No fun de!!!"

Finally Ms.Pam cum... we try fooling. We say, "teacher", then she say "what?" and does that annoying habit of hers of walking away when we try to talk. She loves doing that. But only when I'm around. Or Wang... WHY DOES SHE DO THAT?????

Nyway, we try fooling her by saying there's something at her face. She says, " I know laa~ no need to fool d". We were dissapointed again. Our friends say that teachers already know what day it is coz they have to be careful not to be fooled :D

But Pn. maizura was fooled. Even though she like no feeling... 

Our plan (started by Wang and elaborated by us) for Sej tcher is:

a) say her skirt tear

b) laugh

But when she come in, no one dare to prank -.- we just said her skirt dirty...  try to get the whole class to involve. They did! She dun believe, she say, "haiya... anak saya bangun saja di sana MAK MAK! (the way she say MAK MAK vry funny XD) saya sudah tau laa..." But then 2 Setia Sivanantheni say she saw Pn. Kow keep brushing her skirt and she wonders why... Me, vivian and wang was like, LMAO!

Then, I was gonna prank Pn. Chia... but I dun dare again -.- (I'm so useless) I call her bt say nothing... she wanna noe what i wanna tell her so I say she vry pretty :) I actually meant it coz she's wearing something bsides baju PJ (LMAO). Then Wang go and tambah. APRIL FOOL!!!! And obviously that is insulting. Hope she dun hear... hahahahahahahah! Best joke eva!!!

Pn. Chia kena twice. Before tht, kitty pranked her:

K: Cikgu, saya tak bawa buke untuk pelajaran nanti (yes, her BM is vry cutely perfect^^ she sengaja wan)

PC: Kenapa tak bawa?

K: Kerana hari ini APRIL FOOL DAY!!!

PC: (smile her scary smile) Pandai ah kamu...

We teased Kitty like hell... Everyone knows Pn. Chia likes Kitty... We call her Kitty's Kanma... lols... Me and Wang was like, "oh, her kanma say her pandai lor..." hahahaha!!

Today was fun :)

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Monday is my birthday :) Wonder what will happen? I wonder if got people remember anot... o.o Kor say she ady buy prezzie for me^^

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So emo today coz that Ms.Pam "ngamngamngam"0" again. She ask why me and Wang didn't read storybooks? She say at least I got taking a book. Wang din take. I was like... =.=

then, I jaga stairs 1. Chan Yie Rui come and kacau and say cover ur apung lar. Then I say, cover your ass lar (we speak in chinese)! Din realise Ms. Pam standing there. I act as tho I din see her ( tho i think she heard our conversation) and walked down the stairs. I was still mad at her. ><"  

Me and Wang say that if she wanna lucut out jawatan, we dun reli care. We just continue to be prefects give her face nia. We say if she lucut us, next day, world war III will tercetus. The teachers basically chose me and Wang as prefects coz we are the most notorious (or will be if we are not prefects) girls in 2 Suci :) We dun mind being friends with the other class girls tht go counceling or whatever. To me, thy are just human -.-

Ms.Pam always see me and Wang wan... Especially this week. Coz we duty together... She scared we do what wrong and bad. Whatever. I somemore TIAO TI show off let her see. I DON'T CARE. She dun care bout us, I dun care bout her. She just care bout her darling LMY. I though she was diff and dun just support LMY. But it seems she is the same type of person that support her. Nvmind. I give up liao. She was my favourite teacher. I admit. But now, I am asking myself again...

My dear teacher, I will hnot keep being your dog... Even dogs will one day bite their owners if their owners treat them bad. Pls understand that I don't know what you are trying to do. I am still respecting you but my feelings and patience are dissapearing... 

BTW, sorry Pn. Aminah... i din hantar geografi book yet!!!!!! >< sorry cikgu !!! jangan marah ye... Cn demerit me or punish me... i know it's my fault~

and sorry Pn. Annor... cnt find you so din give you my seni book.... sori ><"!!!

~sheesh, i have a habit of not hantaring books... jangan marah ye cikgu :) 

Postions...

In a class... there is always a:
~class clown
~class brain
~class drama queen
~the rich, pretty and snobbish
~the talkaholic
~teacher's pet (yeesh)
~jock
~art geek
~book worm
~shoe polisher(in league with teacher's pet, the spiteful ones that is)
~and the people that do not really have any jawatan coz they are the ones that sakisikan what the jawatan"ed" people do
However, as we get older. say, sec school. There is two new jawatan(s) that wipes the face of every snob, teacher's pet, brings courage and sticks up for the weak. And is a kinda all rounder. Everyone (and yes, i mean everyone) respects him/her at least a little and will think twice before kacauing him/her. She's not scared of anything, can make everyone hate a person she/he doesn't like and is the sworn enemy of a "dalang di sebalik" That person, is called, Random.
Before I get any further, the " dalang di sebalik" is kinda like a teacher's pet. Or should I say, TEACHERS' PET. They can be damn sweet, show off how smart and sensitive they are in front of easily manipulated people. Teachers, weak kids... etc. But behind their backs, he/she does things so that the person that they hate get into trouble. Then, they will look up at teachers with their puppy dog eyes and say someone bilied them. Naturally, the teachers believe them coz they are really good in education. But they do not know that they are spiteful. :)
Mostly, the Random can see through the "dalang di sebalik's" act. Then, she can tell those people, her/his friends about them. Random's friends are mostly people that is don't really give a damn about shit. They just do whatever they think is right. Randoms are not bulies. They mostly tries to kick a bully's ass and help the weak. But don't get me wrong, they are not monks who gives the weak people advice. Wel,, maybe they do, but not in a sentimental kinda way. Randoms wants people to stick up for themselves. And if she tells you and trains you and you are still a creep. She treats you like a floor. Not really aware that you even exist.
However, "daland di sebaliks" attracts people by their sweet talk. Like a Venus Flytrap, you would say. Most people is her/his puppet. And if there isn't a Random in school, and she puppeteers the teachers, then you're dead. Do you know? " dalang di sebaliks" only ACT good. When they do not need you... They won't be good to you anymore.
Which is why, if a Random hadn't appeared in your school yet (don't worry, they will... God is fair). try sticking up for yourself, you might even end up BEING the Random. As for " dalang di sebaliks" clean up your act before the Random come and knock you out :)
One word of advice, if the person teaches you to be bad, then she/he is not a Random. They might say a bit about kicking teachers' asses and making riots to idiotic bulies, but they will mostly give advice. They don't mostly give them out, so when they do... listen and listen well. Coz you have to remember, Randoms are kinda in the teachers' blacklist category, it takes a lot for them to stop and give you advice. Appreciate them. Randoms can be really smart and good at something. Mostly, not education. But something special that "dalang di sebaliks" don't have.
As for "dalang di sebaliks", not everyone is a "dalang di sebalik". Therefore, if you are a person that sticks up for yourself, don't go bashing every girl/guy that teachers like or their education is perfect. They might actually be nice. Give them a chance, be their friends. If they still act like dogs and bitches (sorry dogs, din mean to insult you) Then you advance :)
Note: Randoms give very single person a chance (or a lot) to prove themselves worthy. They are friends with everyone at least once.
"dalang di sebaliks" mostly give veryone a chance to feel good about themselves then ruin their confidence 100 times worse when they don't need the people anymore.

~Jus to tell you people that this post is completely general. Dun so perasan... 

And you can take this post as advice or a piece of shit. I dun care:)

Have a wicked day ;D

A teenager's feelings

Do anyone realise, our lives. (teenage lives) are very damn confusing? I'm now speaking in general. A teenager's feelings. Don't feel offended.
In school, our teachers say we can't speak a certain language. Yet, they speak it in the staffroom and with certain students. Morning and afternoon session also like that.
(I'm not mentioning which teacher, in case you perasan that it's you I can't do anything oso)
At home, parents always call us to speak the truth. Yet, when we tell them what really happened, they will scold us. Who DARES to tell them the truth???
In school, us prefects have to be hated by both sides. Students hate us cause we have to disagree with everything they do wrong. Teachers scorn us if we do one single tiny mistake.
PEOPLE do you know that us prefects have FEELINGS too????
At home, parents want us to tell our feelings. Our TRUE feelings. when we tell them about a fight with a teacher's pet, or tell them what we think is wrong about the way they teach us, our parents scold us. Many teenagers cut themselves or commited suicide. Why? Because our parents THINK they understand us. But they DON'T.
In school, the teacher sides with those students who does not tell the truth to them. For instance, they might hate the teacher so much that they can ouke just by seeing their face, but they wouldn't say anything. Instead, they talk behind the teacher's back. No teacher realises this. Whenever something goes wrong, they blame the students who tells out what they really feel about a certain teacher. Those people that tell the truth. Teachers, just to tell you something. Don't you know it is good for the students to say what they don't like about you? that way, you can change according to a student's point of view. Therefore, the students will like you more. The students who act good but bad behind? Are spiteful morons. I never act good in front of teacher coz I do NOT wanna be a spiteful moron. If I am good, then I truly like you and would wanna be good to you.

These words are said to you sdults in the teenagers' point of view. You guys may still be thinking you are right. Teachers might think they have no wrong and they can do whatevr they wnat coz they are teachers. Parents might think that they do not need to change. Why? Coz they are the one that earn money, feed us, take care of us, clothe us and out a roof over our head. But remember, without us, there is NO ONE for you to clothe, feed for. And parents AND teachers, do not regret after you see one of your students or children turn out to be a bad person or dissapeared from the human world. Remember, whatever we do, is learnt from you...

-This is a message from teenagers worldwide.

Frienship (for my English homework but I made this myself coz I have nothing better to do so don't copycat or u will kena^^)

The word friendship dawns on the mouth of the young and the old. Everybody needs friends. Without friends, our lives will be a dark ocean of sadness and loneliness.

  Many people often say, “You are my best friend,” and go to another friend with same sentence as well. Actually, best friends mean only one person that is most important to you. A kindred spirit. A person that understands you most. That is what we call a bet friend.

  However, there are also good friends and friends. We need them as well. One best friend is enough to keep you happily occupied for a while but not for long. A fun and jovial experience need to be shared. Sharing with friends can make us happier and feel loved.

  Needless to say, not every person is a true friend. And not every person on earth can stay loyal and help you through the consequences. Therefore, we need to be wise when choosing friends to avoid bitterness and hate.

  Nevertheless, there are still people on this world that can be counted as friends. That will be with us through thick and thin. The conclusion is, friends are important to us. And we have to learn to appreciate and help them in an understanding way to make the bind of friendship strong. XOXO

jie and mei^^

me, kor,may XOXO BFF foreva^^

wang~ understands me most^^ love ya!

-Moon-

~No one really like me, they just need me when I ask for help...
             -Moon-

Everyone always likes him more, no matter what I do, they will always like and love him more. I have given up trying to compete. Why am I always sad and sullen when I get home? Coz I dun have a chance to be happy. He is there, causing all the happiness of the family. They told me, "when you come home, everything gets haywire." 
 I know I'm not wanted. Anywhere, school, house... any place with me is like a constant cloud of depression. But they didn't think of my feelings... No, they only blame me for putting on a sad face every time. 
  They glare at him through rose tinted glasses. Whenever he say something bad, I wll get blamed if I try to scold him. For instance, when I support my mum whenever he scold my mum. My mum scold me for being kpc and noisy.
 ~you know what, i don't care anymore...
  Every second I'm at home, whichever home. I will hate it. Not because they don't feed me, but they can a;ways find something to pick on me... I have learnt a long time ago, never cry in front of them.. no matter how sad you might be. Never show that you have any sign of weakness... Never let them break you down. Never count on her to give you a hug and soothing words or him to comfort you.
 ~ Everything, must be kept inside myself, coz nobody understands...
I know, this is what teenagers mostly say, nobody understands them. Adults don't understand it, but it is true. Sometimes, we get depressed for no reason. That is when we put on a grim face, Seriously, what? you expect us to smile???? But no, they don't understand... No one in my family understands me... 
 Even as I'm writing this, she's scolding me and comparing me to him... oblivious to my hurt. I act nonchalant. Even cheeked her a little (i'm not proud of that). But she don't know my feelings. They think they are the only people with feelings. I seriously want to be good. But they never thought they did any wrong. The way they talk to me? They think they're right. But they're wrong