Blessed be~

“May the circle be open and remain unbroken,
May the circle be open and forever in your heart.
Merry Meet, and Merry Part, till Merry we Meet again!”

~Incubus Succubus, May the Circle be Open

Do you believe in Witchcraft? I certainly do... I don't think it's weird, believing in stuff like the forces of nature, ghosts, spirits, demons... Supernatural stuff.

  When I was young, I always imagined myself as one of those super powered guys and chicks on TV... pretty lame right? But I still believe in Magick... Even till now... Everytime I want something, I beg the moon and the spirit of the Sun to listen to me and fulfill my dream... Not that I don't believe in God... It's just that, the moon and sun has a damn freakin' weird effect on me... Especially the moon... am I weird? Maybe... Crazy? Probably... XD

Whenever you are sad, need help or whatever... And you don't feel like saying it to anyone... Make a little prayer by your favourite part of nature... Or even whisper to your dreams...

~I may sound weird, but maybe... one day the spirit of Nature can help you endure the worst in your life...

**But I believe, the four elements has a power in them... and the spirit of the Moon will always spread the Light onto everyone...

blessed be....

Love~

No matter how thy try and try
Under the moonlight of the goddess Nyx
Everything thy did thy did for them
Yet nobody noticed
The pain and sorrow
Of the young virgin
In the darkness of the falling stars...

Thy cry in the shine of the sun
And broke your heart to pieces every disappearance of light
The darkness of the night cannot beat the darkness inside
Breaking dawn indicates the start of life for some
But for you, my dear
The beginning of a holocaust
That burns thy feelings into nothingness...

You,
With the body of a small deer
Would not give up as thy soul
Stand strong and bright
And would not give up...

Everyday,
Doing whatever it takes...

For a smile
An approval
A pinch of care
Love                                               
Hope
And to be part of this world...

SMILE=APPROVAL=CARE=LOVE=HOPE=PART OF THIS WORLD:]
~will thy get thy wish?
Maybe drop a tear from the Great Goddess of Nyx?
Gambateh....

(this is the story about a someone I know, who only wanna get love and attention. So she did everything and even always embarass herself for attention... this poem is dedicated to her, made specially for her... And I am therefore not insulting any religion here...)

Dun sweat ==

Trying to make me scared? Or perhaps, cry?
Just to tell you that you have failed miserably...
To that "mo-mo" ren that have told teacher about what I had wrote in Facebook...
I don't care who that person is,
This post is to tell you that...
a) I don't care
b) Thanks for your "kindness" of letting me waste a bit of time away from class
c) I happen to be completely unaltered by what teacher marah me for writing in Facebook
d) Go find someone else to buli that will pay attention to you...
 ~i don't know you are searching for attention or what hell... but don't kacau me for I have no time for dumb games...
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P.S:
I do agree that I'm kinda rude when I am talking without looking at teachers... so teachers, I apologise. From now on I will promise to look deeply into your face everytime I talk to you.. And I am not joking, I am serious.
P.P.S:
I have an idea for our burger plan... Maybe we don't need to waste so much money.... 2 Suci^^

Anthony Neely - Sorry That I Loved You

~i love this song so much coz it totally reflects my feelings...
But no regrets...
Hapi to meet you
I'll always pray for you in my dreams~
Gambateh

♥

Swt-.-||

What is wrong with you:
1)You should realise that, despite your popularity among the elder people in the school... you are  totally NOT respected by everyone in your class....
2) Therefore, we will not listen to whatever choice you wanna make that doesn't make sense.
3) I, am not like the elder people in our school that will pamper you, listen to you... and give you all the popularity and things you need. They treat you like gold or diamonds, but don't forget I treat everyone like a human. A NORMAL human.
4) This school don't always treat the leaders like they rule everything. I will NOT listen to you even if you are a leader and yet you give dumb advice.
5) REMEMBER~ you might get liked by people now. Or people are just PRETENDING to like you... but that might not happen in the future. You life has just started...
6) Everyone had tried at least ONCE to like you and be your friend, the people that don't like you has their own reasons. It's probably your attitude. I had tried. MANY times to be your friend. But everytime, you bombed up your chance. I really hate to hate people. So don't worry, i don't hate you coz there are enough people to be hated in this wordl without hating you.
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Today is the worst day of exams in my life. My sejarah and math exam sucks.... I'm SO failing this test... (touch wood)
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I think my art teacher and my english teacher and my ex sejarah teacher is kinda cool^^
~trust me, it's a compliment coz seriously, i don't compliment teachers...
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~Life is colourful in the midst of darkness....
*created this phrase for my seni homework^^ XD
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Misunderstood~ and existence

  Seriously, I don't know what to do to you... So, for the time being, I'll act as though you do not exist in my life... And i hope you will act as though I'm invisible too.
Oh, BTW. Stop picking at me, if you think I care whether YOU like me or not... I don't. And no one else in this school cares anything about you accept how much they hate and despise you.
Look at your own reflection in the mirror before you start judging others. You are seriously not that bad.... Others might look at your outer appearance, but i mainly focus on personalities. If you can't show a good personality and professional enough to not express your feelings in a class... then, trust me... I will respect you more.
~To those who do not know who I am talking about, it's "The Egg" and if you still dun understand, ask me in school^^
  And no, I do not hate HER after she scolded us that day coz I feel she is... umm... a human? Seriously, I never really noticed her before. To me, she is "the-sweet-teacher-that-keeps-smiling-at-everyone". Now, she's "the-teacher-that-i-will-respect-as-she-proved-her-worth-to-me". Hehe~ before this, I can look at her freely as though she's just a freakin brick wall. Now, looking at her, I can feel... umm... a teensy bit of radiation of confidence radiating from her... LolxDD
~If you dunno who I'm talking about, ask me in school or Facebook...^^
Anyways~
  I'm not mad at you for scolding me in front of the whole club anymore... I was before this... but i hate hating people and since i already dislike someone.... i do not wanna dislike you anymore...  Waste of time and energy.... So, to all who knows about this... PEACE OUT^^
~ To all my frens that helped me when I am in my most sad and depressed, LOVE you guys SO much!!! I will DEFINITELY do the same to you!! MUAKS^^
P.S> I scared GEOGRAPHY EXAM!!!!!!!><
P.P.S> test week, anyone up for jumping down a building? hahaxDD

*** I noe all teachers hate me... but this post isn't to critisize anyone. Just to tell pple what I feel.... So, if anyone feel insulted by this,DON'T. Coz this is the only place where I can express my feelings in words so don't ruin it for me... if by any chance. Any teachers see this, you can choose to continue hating me.. I can't do anything...so zzzzz~

Depression

  Umm, seriously~ what can a teenage girl rite about except school, unusual cravings for Domo-Kun^^

This is a Domo-Kun... in case you are wondering...

 And how she survive middle school without slitting her hands or committing suicide(close, but not yet).

Since this is my blog, I am not going to be private or anything. So I am just going to say...

I DUN RELI LIKE MY SEJARAH TEACHER!!!!

You can say I am rude, I do not respect teachers... But I am sure every single student in my school hates her. Why do I hate her?

~She said I was kpc... 

I wasn't even talking to her!! SHEESH!!!

~She said she don't wanna give me sijil coz I said it's just a piece of paper.

It IS a piece of paper -.-|| Anyway, it's not really her choice...

I know, if she sees this... or anyone... I am in deep shit... but I wanna point out tht this is MY blog... I can write ANYTHING i want...

I am NOT insulting her... Nor am I trying to make people hate her... I's just my feelings... ya know~ So don't misunderstand....

Neways, I am stressed about exams, plus some other stuff... seriously, I'm gettng desperate.

I've never really felt that sad before in my life. I never thought a day would come when I actually knew the feelings of the people that commited suicide(dun worry, the feeling is under control... i'm not killing myself). I realised that, when the person is really desperate, you don't really care about life anymore. You feel like, happiness errupting when you think about ending it. However, based on my experience, you just need to oush all those things aay. Have a cry... in front of your friends... in public. Whatever. But you will be able to overcome the feeling.. Like me.

   Think about it, you have the courage to commit suicide, slit your wrists.. but you don't have enough courage to cry in public? voice it out? express it? The first few stages are tough. But God created us with hope... so long as you believe in yourself, the pain will end. Soon, things will get better, life will seem bearable. You will wonder why had you ever thought of killing yourself? No, your pain won't dissapear, but it will lessen. No, you won't commit suicide because you force yourself to... you live because you don't have a reason to die.

~Dying for someone is worthless... living for someone is what makes the world go round. If i die everytime i face a problem in every life i have... Then, I will die a lot of times...

*I do not know if you agree... it's a great experience, really. To feel so depressed you don't wanna do anything except cry. But lived through it and tell the story. You might think I am strong, but no... I am not. Every human can cope with that. It's whether you want it, or not. You might think I am not hurt enough, maybe... but trust me. I never felt this depressed before in my life.

♥ It's up to you... to determine if this post is useless... or will it help?